IS ALWAYS POSSIBLE
FOR THE PERSON
WHO REFUSES TO STOP
I sometimes get very tired of "fighting" - fighting to stay positive, to eat right and exercise, to be patient, to keep my temper, to be "nice." Fighting to not be so selfish and ornery and moody, to not let fear and anxiety choke me, to not let the yearning for approval and encouragement and respect from people who refuse to give it suffocate my passion and creativity.
I. Am. Tired.
And so I will stop. I will stop fighting.
I will stop fighting myself.
I will stop wrestling every negative or mean thought that comes into my head. I will stop battling my desire for chocolate and cheese, and I'll let that craving win once in awhile. No more beating myself up for everything that is "wrong" with me. I will stop scolding myself for being selfish. No more bowing to guilt, to letting others make me feel bad or not "enough."
I think one of the greatest victories we can achieve is becoming our best selves, our true selves. How in the world are we going to manage that if we're constantly at odds with, and within, ourselves? I don't want to be my own worst enemy.
So, instead of fighting ourselves, let's accept ourselves in all our messy glory. Let's continue to challenge ourselves - to grow, to learn, to improve - but let's do it with an internal attitude of camaraderie, of teamwork. There are enough bullies out in the world; we don't need one inside of us. Let's be our own best friend instead.