IF YOU ARE ALWAYS TRYING
TO BE NORMAL,
YOU WILL NEVER KNOW
HOW AMAZING YOU CAN BE.
There were a handful of times in my life when I tried to be normal, when I tried to fit in. I tried to appease others. I tried to do, say, own what normal people do, say, own. I thought it would be so much easier to be normal. It was often lonely and exhausting on the outside. I wanted the view from the inside.
I don't know why I bothered. Normal is not an outfit I wear well. Normal was an itchy sweater, socks that wouldn't stay up, too tight pants. I was constantly scratching and tugging and having to hold my breath.
I don't know how "amazing" I'll ever be, but I'm finally able to just let go, to be myself. In an old NaNo t-shirt and Minion pajama pants, I can be me. I can breathe.