BUT I WILL NEVER AGAIN FORCE MY STORY
TO FIT A MOLD JUST BECAUSE I THINK IT SHOULD,
BECAUSE I'VE LABELED MY PROCESS LESSER THAN.
I MAY NOT BE A NATURAL STORYTELLER,
BUT I AM A STORYTELLER ALL THE SAME.
During the last few blog hops, I noticed a lot of us struggle with our writing process. For me, writing stories comes easier. It's the novel writing that gives me trouble.
I spent many years forcing my ideas into this list and that outline structure. (I love a good list and I'm pretty organized in real life, but my creative side balked loudly and rudely at this process.) I filled in endless character sheets. (Do I really need to know what kind of gum my protagonist's sister chewed in fifth grade?!) I wrote in a frenzy without looking back. I wrote slowly, editing and revising each page before moving on. I used index cards, notebooks, binders, different color pens. I let people read early pages. I refused to let people read early pages.
I felt like the person who has tried almost every diet out there to no avail. (Oh, wait. I'm that person, too.)
So, after all that effort and angst, do you see a novel out there with my name on it? No. And while there are a number of reasons for that, some outside of my control, I think one of the biggest reasons is that I didn't trust myself. I didn't trust myself to tell the story my way.
Don't get me wrong - I'm all for diving into the craft. Learn, read, listen, apply what works for you. But in the end, it comes down to trusting your gut, trusting your internal storyteller to tell the story the way it wants to, the way it needs to, be told.