IF YOU ARE LUCKY ENOUGH
TO FIND A WAY OF LIFE YOU LOVE,
YOU HAVE TO FIND THE COURAGE TO LIVE IT.
Doesn't it sound funny that we would need courage to live our lives on our own terms? Shouldn't that be one of the easiest things we ever do? And yet I struggle with it.
I sometimes still find myself trying to fit into molds - good wife, good daughter, wonderful housekeeper, excellent cook, earnest volunteer, etc. I think about how much "easier" it would be. I'd have steps to follow or there'd be an accepted order to things. I'd be able to talk with people about "normal" subjects and not have them stare at me blankly or look away dismissively as I talk about my life.
But then I see one of my published stories online and the great comments from readers. I pop around the blogosphere and find all of you, living your amazing, courageous lives. I smile as I watch the tortoises walk around the courtyard. I leave the dust rag where it is and pick up a book instead. I sit on the couch, reading, as my husband kisses the top of my head then calls for Thai food for dinner. I hear him order crab rangoons because he knows I love them and he always lets me have the extra one.
Other people don't have to care about my life. They don't have to be interested in it. But if they don't respect it, then they don't have a place in it.
This week, let's make sure we're living our lives and not the ones we think we should, or the ones other people think we should. We only get one life here on this Earth. Let's not waste it. Let's not give it away.