Well, here it is, the end of NaNoWriMo 2011 and I am once again a winner! Whew! Doing and winning NaNo as Rebel was a different experience for me. It had its pros and cons, and I learned a lot through the process - here are the links to Lesson #1 and Lesson #2 - but I think this one is probably the most important for me -
Lesson #3 - Confidence is fleeting. Or, at least mine is.
How many times this month did I waffle back and forth on whether this was a good story or not? I've lost count.
How many times did I think, "Hey, this story is amazing but I'm mucking it up something awful!"? I've lost count.
How many times did I think, "This is going really well and I'm a pretty good writer after all." I'd say...three. Three times.
BUT even with all that wailing and sniffling and worrying, I am still able to look at my story, my big giant mess of a women's fiction/horror hybrid of a novel and think, "Hey, look at that! Look at what I did. Look at what I accomplished."
And you know what? I'll take it.
Congratulations to all those who won NaNo 2011 AND to all those who participated! Believe me, that counts for something. It really does.