WHENEVER YOU FIND YOURSELF ON THE SIDE
OF THE MAJORITY, IT IS TIME TO
PAUSE AND REFLECT.
I used to think it was "wrong" to think and to feel differently than a lot of the people I knew, to want different things, to want a different way of being in this world. I used to think there was something wrong with me. Why didn't I feel the way she did? Why didn't I think the same thing he did?
I spent a lot of time feeling like the kid on the outside of the circle. You know the one I mean. The other kids are all gathered together talking and laughing and playing but there's always that one kid on the outs. Maybe it's because she loves to read. Maybe it's because he enjoys something the others think is geeky. Who knows? It can be anything and it can be nothing.
Even now, I sometimes feel like I'm on the outside of the circle. I don't always understand what a lot of other people are talking about or why they find certain things interesting. My life is not "normal" compared to other women my age.
It often hurt when I was a kid and, honestly, it sometimes hurts now, too. But I've learned that I'd still rather be on the outside of the circle and be able to breathe and to see all around me than to be stuck in the center where the air can be stagnant and the view is often monotonous.
Anyone want to join me outside the circle today?